Amazon and The Big Damn Beta Reader Post

If you follow me on twitter, or if you were awakened this morning by what sounded like the screams of a thousand beansidhe wailing for the future of original fiction and fandom in one long, desperate howl, then you're aware that Amazon is a nest of fucking vampires who will not rest until they suck the very life out of the industry that built them. I'm speaking, of course, about the new Kindle Worlds program, a venue for fanfic writers who really don't give a shit about the creations they're purporting to love to exploit the fuck out of fandom and sell what in the past has always been given away for free out of integrity and a need to not get sued. You can read about the fucking travesty here at The Mary Sue, although they take a much different view of this bullshit than I do.

I was going to come here and write a scathing post about why this is shitty and why it will harm both fandom and original fiction, but you know what? I am tired of feeling like Ned Stark at King's Landing. I'm not going to be the Hand of the King on this one. If readers and ficcers want to be Robert Baratheon and refuse to see that the boar of paid fanfiction is wearing Amazon's Lannister colors...

Wait. Let me dial my nerd back a little.

Basically, I'm not going to rant on the subject (at least here; my twitter account is going to be bitter and terrible for A WHILE), because it has yet to do me any good other than getting a nice mad on and whipping you all up in an angry frenzy. Instead, I'm going to do something constructive that I've been considering for a little while.

Ever since I started recapping 50 Shades last year (Jesus, a year. A year of my fucking life) I have had requests to read people's original fiction and fanfiction. Some of you have written to me asking if I can be as critical of your work as I am of 50, and that's very flattering. However, everyone has gotten a no. Not because I don't love and care about you all, dear readers, but I just don't have the time to fulfill these requests. I write about forty-thousand words a month, excluding the 50 and Buffy recaps, so I really just don't have time left over for stuff like beta reading or leaving the house or showering.

In my spare time (which exists in the same magical realm as dragons and unicorns and plus-sized jeans that aren't made of stretch material that make them super fall-downish), I'm the president of a not-for-profit group that seeks to help writers at all stages of their careers. We have a mentor program, in which an author further along in their career helps someone who is either just starting out or is stuck and doesn't know the next step or whatever, and sometimes that turns into a beta reading relationship. I don't know why this didn't occur to me before, but you can credit one of the blog regulars, Thea K, with giving me the mental push into, "Oh yeah, I could do this" land.

If so many of you are looking for beta readers... why not pair y'all up HERE?

So, this is how it's going to work:

1. Leave a brief comment with the genre, word count (or estimated word count), and a one sentence description of your work. That's really all that someone needs to know whether or not their project is for you. "High Fantasy, 100k, a girl embarks on a quest to avenge her father, murdered by a wizard."
2. Leave people some way of getting ahold of you. Your twitter (if your account is unprotected), your facebook, your GoodReads account, your email address (youraddress at domain dot com, to avoid spambots) so that if someone is interested in beta reading your work, they can find you.
3. Volunteer to read someone else's work. This will only be beneficial to everyone if everyone participates and volunteers their time. You can work it out between yourselves and set your own limits, whether you're looking for someone to read a chapter at a time or the whole work in one piece, and what you're willing to do in return. But you have to give something back, either to the person who volunteers or another person in the comments section.
4. Leave a follow up comment when you have a reader. This is for two reasons: one, so you don't keep getting people offering you help when other people on the list are waiting, and so there's a record that someone read your work, in case something... untoward goes down. Which leads us to the next and final step:
5. Don't be a dick. Don't plagiarize, don't leak chapters, don't mock people, just don't. Don't be a dick. I think most of us here are not dicks, so this should be a pretty easy one to follow.

This is not a fanfic beta reader search. It's easier to find a reader in fandom to beta your fandom works. Go through those message boards and channels instead. This is for original fiction only.

With that said, I'll just leave the rest of it in your hands. If you're looking for a beta and this post helps, awesome. If it all collapses like one of Clara's souffles, then whatever. At this point, I just want to do whatever I can to help original fiction writers. It seems pretty clear that it's going to get more difficult for all of us as the industry leans toward the joys of destroying fiction in general.

Now, if you will excuse me, I have some Valjean/Javert "What if they were gay and also in high school?" fanfic I need to polish off so I can make thirty-nine bajillion dollars.

50 Shades Freed chapter 16 recap, or "Blind to Recursion"

The other day, I got the most delightful tweet:

The description DRF is talking about is:

I sit on the barstool beside my husband, who just looks radiant: freshly showered, his hair damp, wearing a crisp white shirt and that silver-gray tie. My favorite tie. I have fond memories of that tie.

And the picture that resulted?

Well done, my friend. Well done.

Also, Thea K believes this link will be of particular interest to everyone, and I am inclined to agree. It's an E! documentary on 50 Shades of Grey. I tried to watch it, but they said the book was selling at a rate of 1 per second, and I had to turn it off because I'm trying not to self harm anymore.

ARCs of The Boss are now available for review

Hey there everybody! I've got .pdf ARCs of The Boss available for reviewers. To request one, fill out this form.

I'm asking that only people who seriously want to review the book, either on their blog, or another blog they review for, or a GoodReads account, request ARCs. I'm not trying to be elitist or jerky and let some readers have something other readers don't get, it's just a signal boost for the book as we near the end and the release of the free ebook and the paperback version.

My Doctor Who Post-Season Finale Predictions

IF YOU HAVE NOT WATCHED "THE NAME OF THE DOCTOR" DO NOT GO PAST THE JUMP.

This is not a proper blog post.

This is not a proper post, just link spamming, but I felt like this link might speak to a large portion of my readership and if any of you had missed it, well. I would feel terrible knowing such a horrible tragedy could have been prevented. So, here's a link to pictures of Prince Harry looking so hot, the bottoms of your feet will tingle.

That is all.

The Big Damn Buffy Rewatch S01E10 "Nightmares"

In every generation there is a chosen one. She alone will forget to change this opening comment before posting. She will also recap every episode of Buffy The Vampire Slayer with an eye to the following themes:

1. Sex is the real villain of the Buffy The Vampire Slayer universe.
2. Giles is totally in love with Buffy.
3. Joyce is a fucking terrible parent.
4. Willow's magic is utterly useless (this one won't be an issue until season 2, when she gets a chance to become a witch)
5. Xander is a textbook Nice Guy.
6. The show isn't as feminist as people claim.
7. All the monsters look like wieners.
8. If ambivalence to possible danger were an Olympic sport, Team Sunnydale would take the gold.
9. Angel is a dick.
10. Harmony is the strongest female character on the show.
11. Team sports are portrayed in an extremely negative light.
12. Some of this shit is racist as fuck.
13. Science and technology are not to be trusted.

WARNING: Some people have mentioned they're watching along with me, and that's awesome, but I've seen the entire series already and I'll probably mention things that happen in later seasons. So... you know, take that under consideration, if you're a person who can't enjoy something if you know future details about it.

How to judge readers and alienate people.

Step one: write this blog post.  The post has since been deleted. But I'm still mad about it, and I still want to make a point here.

Kendall Grey feels that her art, her true passion, is urban fantasy, a genre that is apparently leagues above erotic romance in terms of merit and morality. I find this stance so patently absurd; I wrote some fairly successful urban fantasy, and no one seemed to feel those had any artistic merit. The most common question I faced from people who didn't "get" the genre or who thought it was some worthless fad was, "Isn't that just paranormal romance?" Because it wasn't enough. It was genre fiction, it wasn't smart, it wasn't worth reading.

Sounds kind of like what people like Kendall Grey would say about erotic romance.

I became so fed up with and hurt by people and their foolish misconceptions about what was and wasn't real writing. I loved my books. Writing them was fun, and I was proud of them. The added bonus was that I could support myself writing them. I didn't feel like I'd sold out because I wasn't writing literary fiction, because I was happy.

Those are the three magic ingredients to a successful writing career, by the way: Fun, Pride, and Money. In that order of importance.

Eventually, I burnt out on urban fantasy. It wasn't as fun for me anymore, and I wasn't excited about any of my urban fantasy ideas. So, I picked up a pen name and turned to a genre that was fun. The first book I wrote was Ravenous, a pirate-vampire-menage-a-trois. No, seriously. It was silly and fun and the prose got super purple. I had a blast. Did it make me ten thousand dollars in a week, like the book Kendall Grey only deigned to write? No. I don't think it's made ten thousand dollars since it came out years and years ago. But I'm still proud of it, and I still have good memories of writing it.

Next, I wrote Glass Slipper, a novella that I fell in love with from the first page. I could honestly write seven more stories just about Josephine and Julien and all the hot sex they could get up to as a married couple. You know, when you've been together a while and you can really let go? Yeah, they're doing something naughty right now, I'll bet. But I digress. I am proud of that novella, I had fun with it, and it made me a little money.

As I started out down the erotic romance path, I began to meet people who wrote in the genre, people whose paths I never really crossed before just because that's the nature of the business. They were all warm and funny and incredibly good at karaoke. The readers? They loved their genre without reservation. And everyone involved in that community? They weren't ashamed of what they wrote, read, and loved. Everyone was celebrating their love of reading and writing dirty books. I was writing something I really enjoyed it, I was proud of what I was doing, it wasn't making me the most money ever but hey, the other two made up for that. I felt like a writer again.

I recently had a book, well. Fail to meet my expectations for sales. I am devastated. For the past few weeks, I have been struggling in deep depression, doubting myself, doubting my career, wondering if all my failures are a sign that I should give up, that I am a terrible writer, that I am worthless. But do you know what keeps me going? The Boss. A story I wrote because it was fun, and I was having fun writing it. And I'm proud of it. I've never been so proud of anything I've ever written before (with the exception of a eulogy, but that's a downer and it was definitely not erotic romance because that would have been grossly inappropriate for the occasion). Is it making me money? Nah, I'm giving it away for free. Because I'm proud of it, and I want people to read this thing I did. And according to Kendall Grey? I'm doing it wrong:

"You can be noble and stick to your guns and say, 'Screw that! I’m gonna keep writing what’s in my heart no matter what!' Fine and groovy, as long as you accept that this guerilla mentality of badassery won’t pay your bills. More power to you for upholding your principles!"

I disagree fundamentally with anyone claiming writing anything will "pay your bills." See, I'm pursuing what I love- erotic romance- in a market that Kendall Grey seems to be claiming will make authors heaps of money, if only they compromise themselves. Here's a cold, hard fact: Kendall Grey made ten thousand in a week? I made ten thousand last year. Same "trashy smut" that's all the rage these days. And you know her failed UF series? Turns out that one of the most highly anticipated books of 2013 was Dead Ever After, an urban fantasy! What a fucking concept! It's almost as though no matter which genre an author writes in, some will succeed financially and some will fail!

I would be a liar if I said I didn't get bitter and envious when I see other authors, you know, paying their water bills or going to the dentist since 1998 or wearing clothes that don't have holes in them. At the end of the day, though, I'm a pretty happy person, and I consider myself a success. Because when I sit down to write, I'm not forcing myself to write something I don't care about, or actively hate. I'm not victimizing myself by choosing to write what I write. I don't walk away feeling cheap, dirty, or ashamed.

And another really cool thing about the path that I'm on? I'm meeting an amazing little group of weirdos just like me, but also just slightly different enough from me that we can all be interesting to each other. We can all bring something to the table.

"Once you’ve done your part to feed the reader machine, and you get paid ridiculous amounts of money for publicly shaming yourself and lowering your standards, you’ll be armed with the power to write what you want. Once you’ve built your readership, there’s a good chance many of your readers will follow you into your preferred, artsy-fartsy genre because they like you. Yes, you may have to compromise and write more sell-out books along the way to feed YOUR machine, but the beauty is that you can do BOTH and make it work."

I can't even get my head around a statement like this. When one of you guys draws me a flag of a fish with a severed arm in its mouth? That's amazing. When you tell me about how your husband passed away unexpectedly and my 50 Shades posts are the only thing you can laugh at? You have no idea how much that touches and baffles me. And then I see someone encouraging other writers to "feed the reader machine." This advice robs the struggling writer of the experience of connecting to their readers. A little over a year ago, I felt so incredibly alone and like such a failure. And now I feel like I have a success that, while unmeasurable in sales figures or dollar amounts, is truly greater than the money I was making before.

The reason Kendall Grey feels ashamed isn't because the genre is "trashy smut." The reason Kendall Grey feels ashamed is because she feels the erotic romance genre has no value or artistic merit, and she's prostituting herself to it. Because she apparently believes that erotic romance authors don't take the same amount of care and pride in their work as she did with her artistic urban fantasy. These are not problems with the genre. They're problems of an individual.

We would all like to experience the runaway success of a 50 Shades or a Harry Potter. But if that's why you're in the business, you're always going to be bitterly disappointed. There will always be a publishing company who doesn't want you. There will always be a book you work hard on that doesn't perform the way you want it to. And there will never be a rhyme or reason to why some books become insanely popular, while other books sell five copies. If the only way to make yourself feel better about your writing and your choices is to apologize for them and justify them with dollar figures... you're doing something very wrong. And if a part of that involves insulting readers and writers and tarring an incredibly diverse genre with a judgmental and narrow-minded brush? Then what are you even doing writing in that genre in the first place?

Erotic romance has plenty of detractors from the outside (and some from the inside). We don't have to be a Sunshine Sisterhood; that's a mentality I've complained about, myself. But we do at least owe the genre and the readers the respect of doing the best we can, and believing in our own work.

So to everyone aspiring to cash in on 50 Shades by dashing off a dirty book on your lunch hour: If you don't like erotic romance, then you shouldn't feel the need to grace the genre with your artistic presence. It won't suffer without you and the books you lower yourself to write.